Just a pause...

 Yesterday I heard my daughters heartbeat on the screen. What a beautiful and pure sound - all indicative that everything is in working order and what could be more of a pleasure than that ?


A clear and distinct sound of galloping horses...
so amazing that her little red haartjie is beating so fast.

I feel like such a proud mommy - you know those types that stand right in front of the stage and proudly proclaim to whoever is within shouting distance, after her child has received an accolade of some sort - that yes! that is MY little girl! :) I feel just like that.

The capacity to love seems to just triple in my heart every time I feel my baby kick, although my ex-boyfriend broke my heart and I thought I could never love or open my heart again.

I totally understand why the Lord bestowed this tiny treasure to me... HE knew I would not understand how things just went wrong and would vreet my brein op trying to figure out the 5w's and h of the breakdown of my relationship.

He knew I would need a healthy distraction. So I received the best gift on earth - Micah-mae.

I'm so unworthy!